Breaking the news..

Breaking the news to our family members is much easier then i expected. Everyone showed their concerns on how I should build up my health and try for another baby.

But I must say that a Miscarriage is not the same as "Wrong Diagnosis by the Doctor". Don't understand why can't we tell the older folks what actually went wrong? You mean they could not accept that there is no baby inside the bag?

I let my MIL informed their side of relatives but I did tell a few closer ones from Kevin's side the actual fact incase everyone think that this was a wrong diagnosis.

For my side.. as we always have family dinner for the whole clan.. i just told my aunts and they helped to spread the news amongst the members.

Post D&C

My bleeding have more or less cleared up about 4 days after my D&C. Dr Khi told me it may varies from 3 days to 3 weeks.

Resume my usual routine which is carrying Dillion, bringing him out to supermarketing and drinking my coffee/tea.

D&C process..

Process:

Chatted awhile with Dr Khi in the OT. The OT was very very cold!!! ANd i was shivering. The OT does not look that scary in my impression.

Dr Khi had troubles looking for the veins on my hands. She finally found 1 and started to inject sedative.

I remembered vaguely that she was asking me if I feel sleepy anot.. I replied "No leh.. you see i can still chat with you"

Next moment, I must have black out and when I woke up at 12pm.. I was already back in my ward.

Happy to see KEvin and Dillion in the ward and relieved that the ordeal is over! I was still feeling groggy.. so I went back to sleep .

FInally had my lunch at 2pm and rested before discharging.

Thankfully the process is painless. Losing this pregnancy is painful to us.

There is no life in another words, no baby in the bag so we do not feel so heartache.. but we feel sad that it was a unsuccesful pregnancy ..

Painless Ordeal..

Dr Khi checked on me in the A&E. The water bag went lower in my tummy hence the excessive bleeding and the purging of blood clot as it was trying to purge itself out.

I chose to admit myself into TMC so that i can get ample bed rest and Dr Khi can check on me tomorrow.
If the scan shows no more water bag then no need to do D&C.

I requested for 4bedder .. and was told not to move around and get nurses to help if i need to pass urine.

I could not sleep as it was terribly cold even with 2 blankets. I miss my boys very badly.. so not used to sleeping without them.

I had to go without food/drinks after 12 am incase i need to go for D&C surgery.

15th July:
Dr Khi checked on me at 9.30am. Water bag remains so need to do 'washing' as claimed by Dr Khi so paperwork done for me to go for surgery at 12pm.
I was wheeled around the wards and clinic. Wow so embarassing.. as I think the people in the clinc must be wondering what happened to me.

Told to change into operating gown at 11am. And nurses came and 'collect' me at 11 am sharp..

The process of being wheeled into the operating theather was scary. Many people walked past me. and waited so long for the lift to send us down. It made me panic a lil'

I was chatting with the nurse that I don't even feel scared when I was in labour ward. I was actually very scared and nervous!

Trip to A&E

I feel like my menses is back.. the flow just keep getting heavier.. Its no long spotting. I'm bleeding.

I took my evening bath and was shock to see blood clots flowing out.

Time was 9pm and Kevin is still at work (till 10pm). I was in 2 minds whether to rush down to TMC's A&E in case its anything serious that will put my life in danger due to excess bleeding or might as well wait till wed since I will be seeing Dr KHi.

I was confused as where should i place Dillion so late at night. SHould i leave him with his great-grandparents place then meet Kevin in TMC. But then D won't sleep without us around.

So I gave Kevin a call and get him to rush home from work at 9pm. We made a trip down to A&E with D in tow.

When the nurse took my temperature (Due to H1n1 precautions) and asked me for my reason for being here..
I told her "Suspected Miscarriage".. think she was quite taken aback at my calm reply .

3rd Visit to the Gynae..

Kevin took urgent leave to take care of Dillion while I went down to see Dr Khi to check out the cause of my bleeding.

I went into see her with a heavy bladder this time.

From the tummy scan.. we can now see the water bag. Again nothing inside. Its EMPTY.

My heart sank to the lowest end. Although Dr Khi was kind enough to be very positive about this.

I asked her if this is Chemical Pregnancy? And she said No.
Is this possible to have a water bag but no baby at all? And she said Yes.
I been googling and reading all about pregnancy-related since I had DIllion but i never came across i heard of empty water bag case.

She asked me to go for blood test to see if i'm really pregnant or wait for a while longer for this Baby to plant himself in the bag.

I been handling this rather strongly alone in the room with her. And I asked if no baby then we have to do D&C.

Oh.. no baby but an empty bag.. and chances of leaving the bag alone , hopefully it dislodge itself is low and the bag may just grow bigger!

Nevermind.. I'm giving this Baby NO. 2 another chance.. I took the blood test which again is painful because the nurse had problem poking my fine veins.

was told to come back again on wed for yet another blood test so that we can tell the difference in hormonal level in my body.

It get heavier..

Not my tummy but the bleeding.

Its like a roller coster ride for me. I'm so confused. The blood can go from pink to brown back to pink then now red.

Red is bad news. I see red over the weekend and I somehow knows something is not right.

I'm not so panicky about it. Maybe its a mother's instinct? Wonder will there be a baby inside my sac when i see my gynae again?

2nd Visit to the Gynae..

I went down to the clinic with Dillion and luckily there was a slot for me to see Dr Khi.

She did a v-scan for me again as my bladder was not full and she could not locate the sac.


The water bag have grown but again NO BABY? Again Dr Khi comforted me that I may still be in early stage!!

Bad News: She spotted a blood clot near the bag. Hence I was spotting.

So she ordered for me to get a hormone jab on my bum and ordered complete bed rest for me. Because if not, the water bag may just get pulled down together with the clot.

That hormone jab was dammed painful lor!! My bum hurts after that.

It was difficult for me to get complete bed rest as my full-time job is to look after Dillion.

Furthermore my MIL is leaving for her Genting trip tonight and Kevin is on guard duty. Oh.. just have to really pray hard that the spotting will not get heavier as I think it starting to turn brownish which is a good sign.

Spotting..

I saw traces of pinkish blood after urinating at night.. I got panic. I started googling about it.

Spotting is common in pregnancy. Could be clearing away my old menses.

I decided to make a visit to Dr Khi tomorrow to get a peace of mind.

During my 1st pregnancy.. everything was so smooth sailing.
No morning sickness, no spotting.. My energy level was normal and I don't even feel tired at all.
It was too normal that i cried a few times hopping that Dillion would be fine inside me as I was reading too much about what you should be experiencing during the 1st tri. And it does not help when the gynae appointment that time was 4 weeks apart!

Our Extended Family..

We told both side of our extended Family this week.

I was the one to break the news to Kevin's paternal side of family.. needless to say they were elated as this will be their 2nd great-grand child.

I was hesistating whether to let them or should I wait till i crossed the 1st trimester? Since its always a taboo to let one knows that you are pregnant in the 1st trimester.

Well, we were so excited and been waiting for this Baby No. 2 for the longest time so perhaps we should share our joy with our closest relatives.

In case i get misunderstood for putting on weight as my tummy seem to look bloated now.